In the straight edge scene, we often come across individuals whose life stories are as compelling as the music they listen to. Today, we bring you an intimate look into the life of Sabrina, a 33-year-old nurse from Lille, France, who has been an integral part of the hardcore scene since her teenage years. Her journey is a unique blend of hardcore passion, personal discipline, and a commitment to living straight edge.
Sabrina’s story isn’t just about the energy of hardcore shows or her love for tattoos; it’s about the impact of her lifestyle choices on her professional and personal life. As a nurse and a fitness enthusiast, she represents a balance between a demanding career and a dedication to personal health and well-being.
Through this interview, we aim to uncover the layers that make up Sabrina—how she got into straight edge, what it means to her, and how it has shaped her interactions with the world.
Join us as we explore Sabrina’s world, where hardcore music intertwines with a life led by conviction and purpose. And for a closer look at her life and passions, make sure to visit her Instagram at https://www.instagram.com/xs.a.bx/
Tell us about yourself! Hobbies, jobs, passion projects, interests?
I love hardcore music and I go to shows since I’m 15. I also like tattoos, my first was made when I was 18 and now I have others who have been added and I want to fill my whole body little by little. I practice fitness since 5 years to stay healthy, 3 to 4 times a week. I have been a nurse for 13 years. It’s more than a job, it’s a vocation, I wouldn’t change jobs for anything in the world.
What are you listening to these days?
I’m eclectic! I listen to everything (hardcore, metal, rap, rock, pop, …) but my favorite kind of music is and remains hardcore!
What’s your straight edge story?
I was 17 when I claimed myself edge, so 16 years edge! When I was 14-15, I had bad company, so I tried alcohol, cigarettes, weed … It had a bad influence in my life, but I was very impressionable and I wanted, at the time, to blend in, which has completely become the opposite over the years! I was not proud, I hated to lose control of my mind and my body . Then, I discovered the hardcore scene, I met new people, new friends, some was straight edge, I made some research about the straight edge movement and that was a revelation! These values was everything I needed!
How do you define straight edge?
For me , SxE is nothing complicated. A personal, healthy and engaged lifestyle: Mens sana in corpore sano .
The difference between being straight edge and being sober is not too far apart, except that straight edge people are perhaps more committed to their choices, it is a pride that we show and claim in the eyes of all. I’ve always been so proud to show and say I’m straight edge, I enjoy explaining movement to people interested in movement. I will forever be straight, it’s anchored in me like a tattoo is anchored in a body forever.
What engaged me is, unfortunately, to see people on a daily basis who sink into alcohol and other addictions and who ruin their lives, to see negative behavior caused by the effects of drugs or alcohol. I would never want to come to this and lose all control, for myself but also for my family and my friends.
True or False: “If you’re not now, you never were”?
I’ve always been straight edge.
I know several people who claimed sxe and are no longer today.
There are several scenarios and my opinion is different depending on the case. People who were straight edge but now excessively consume alcohol, drugs and/or smoke, I find it very difficult to understand them, I even have a slightly negative opinion on this change of life because I don’t understand how you can go from one extreme to the other.
On the other hand, I also know former straight edge, who no longer claim to be such but continue to respect a healthy life without alcohol, drugs, … who have decided to no longer call themselves sxe because they no longer wanted to feel “chained” “Through the movement and its principles, they needed to be able to be free from the rules. And these people I respect them just as much as a sex person, I can understand this idea of freedom.
Over the past decade or so individuals in recovery have stumbled upon straight edge, and it has really spoken to them. Do you feel that the straight edge community has been, and should be welcoming to those in recovery?
What pride to be able to help and welcome people who have been very badly in their past lives and who decide to completely change their lives by becoming straight edge. These are the people in the movement that I respect the most. They have gone from one extreme to another, we must be proud of their journey and encourage them.
Have you ever felt that your gender has had influenced your experience in the straight edge and/or hardcore scene?
I never felt like being a woman in the hardcore and straight edge scene was a problem. I have always been considered as a woman like men, I have no negative experience to tell, on the contrary, always a lot of kindness and pride.
Over the years, I’ve seen more and more women in hardcore audiences and in bands.
Do you feel that the straight edge movement/scene is inclusive?
I find the straight edge movement and hardcore scene in general has become much more inclusive in recent years. The new generation seems more open-minded and committed to me. There are always small extremist groups and there always will be… it is up to us to ensure that they remain in the minority and that the voice of tolerance and open-mindedness wins over them. It’s not uncommon to hear bands on stage talking about homophobia, racism, sexism and sending messages against it. We are moving towards the positive always a little more.
Has being straight edge had an impact on your relationships (family, friends, significant others)?
it has always been seen positively by those around me. My family has always supported me, my parents, and my brother are among the people who are sober in everyday life. I never knew alcohol or other drugs in my house when I was younger. Maybe that guided me towards the choice of a healthy life.
My friends have always been very open about it, never encouraged me to drink or smoke. He knows my way of life and respects it. I’ve always been the one who brought all the friends back in the car after a party, who said stop when one of them started to exaggerate a little, I’m very tolerant and never impose and would never impose my way of life. life to my loved ones and they do the same.
I have been in a relationship for 13 years with a man who is not straight edge, who has smoked and who drinks occasionally. I would never impose my ideas on him, everyone is free to live their life as they see fit.
There’s an ongoing debate on whether one can be straight edge without being a part of the music scene, what’s your thoughts on this?
Being straight edge is above all a personal choice, a life commitment, a decision to keep a healthy mind in a healthy body. Why then should it be obligatory to be affiliated with the scene which saw the birth of the movement?
Although, yes, when I hear about straight edge , obviously, I think first of all of the hardcore scene. Everyone can claim to be straight edge regardless of their musical scene.